About Lex

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I could tell you that I’m 19. But that will change.

I could tell you that I live in Illinois. But that may change too.

I could tell you that I’m hilarious but, let’s face it, depending on whether or not I get my morning coffee, that definitely changes too.

Although this is my very first official “About” page, I’d like to think I know a little bit about talking about myself. My name’s Alexis however most people know me as Lex, Lexi, or “that one black girl”. I’m nineteen years old, a recent graduate from high school, and I grew up in a small town near Chicago where the only thing higher than the people themselves was the teen pregnancy rate. Growing up in such a small, lackluster town, I quickly had to learn ways to entertain myself with things other than mediocre reality television and that good ol’ Mary Jane, hence my obsessions with fashion, music, filmmaking, professional shower singing, photography, and writing. Like most teenaged girls, I’ve had my share of break-ups and heartache, hormone induced mood swings, NON-hormone induced mood swings, failed ProActiv attempts, after school detentions, embarrassing  sex talks, and even more embarrassing sex. However, one thing that sets me apart from the “typical teenager” is

I starve myself.

Well mostly, anyways, with the exception of the occasional purge and laxative use but, let’s face it, who wants to admit that shit?

(no pun intended)

46 thoughts on “About Lex

  1. You’re going to get through this. There is hope. I am praying for you! Keep being honest in your writing…it’ll take some of the power back from your Ed. Xoxox

  2. Hello Lex, I hear you. I’m 45 years old and have had eating disorders most of my life. as a teenager I would say I was more Anorexic than anything else. Then bulimia and now Binge eating. Yikes…I played with them all. It was my way of controlling something in my life. Men had controlled me since early childhood…in bad ways. I suppose it was a way of punishing myself as well. Kind of like self loathing. yes, i believe its a mental illness. I am Bipolar along with a few others they chucked in for good measure. Lol I hug you and hope you find peace in yourself to get over this and not let it rule your life as mine has.Thanks for stopping by my blog. Take care of you! I hug you. Paula xxxxx

    • Paula, this was so incredibly sweet. Thank you for taking the time to write this to me…Tonight was kind of rough for me. Just as I could feel myself slipping, I read this. It always feels so good to be reminded that I am not alone. We are not alone. I think you have an incredible amount of strength to have combatted all the…SHIT in your lifetime. Stay strong! And please take care of yourself as well:)

  3. I used to be a anorexic and I’m really glad you brought up that it never fully goes away. You’re never in the safe zone fully and you always have to be on guard. However if your point of view on body image changes, it helps a lot. For instance right now curves and big butts are in, which makes it easier for me to pound back junk food. Stay strong and know that you are absolutely stunning.

    • I truly do hope the “Marilyn Monroe” look is coming back…the media SERIOUSLY scares me sometimes! Thanks for checking out my blog girl! And thank you so much for your sweet words…:)

  4. i appreciate the ability you have to be raw and uncut honest without falling into the trap of sensationalizing dramatic truths about your life. it shows that on top of having a knack for sentence structure you also speak frankly and confidently about yourself. vulnerabilities and all. good luck to you.

  5. Can I make a suggestion as a career choice? WRITER! Wow, I’m not often impressed when I read someones writing for the first time but you pretty much nailed it with the reality as well as your expression of it. Thanks, I look forward to reading your blog and getting to know you. Thanks for stopping my mine!

  6. wow!!! brave girl!!!!
    i know it is not going to matter that i think you are beautiful and worthy. those are words that fall short and the words of your brain push them out if they happen to seep in! but let’s try-you are strong, you are worthy, you are beautiful! your suffering is real. your pain is real. and you are real!

      • man i was reading your about and going along thinking “hmm this kid is cool” (no offense but i have a kid almost your age and one that will be almost your age in a month-ugh!!!) then it slapped me in the face! you are an amazing writer!!! and i rarely say that, i am a bit of a literary snob so it takes alot, but you are good! your writing is raw! you need that, the world needs that! you are not alone!! i promise you!!! i live in oklahoma, but i am around and i am willing to talk if you ever need it! you are striking in all ways and you will do great things!!!!

        • That is quite possibly the sweetest compliment I’ve ever heard…thank you so much! My goal was to give readers EXACTLY what you just described. I can’t thank you enough for your support-and stamp of approval;)

  7. Hi Lex, like several have said before, your writing is incredible, you need to look into being a full time writer.
    My eyes are opened now, I did not see anorexia as a mental illness but now that you mention it, I must say that it makes sense. I truly believe that you can beat this, consider it as a stage in your life that you will overcome, prayers going your way, hugs!! 🙂

    • Wow. If it’s one thing that I accomplish in life, it’s to shed light on eating disorders and the impact that they make on our lives. To know that now, you are beginning to gain perspective on eating disorders because of what I have written is…incredible.
      So humbling.
      I can’t explain how extremely honored I am to hear your words “my eyes are opened now”-thank you so much!
      Xx

  8. This was the most beautiful “about me” page that I’ve ever read. You seriously have a way with words! Thank you so much for writing on behalf of us all and showing people out there that eating disorders are a mental illness and not a “choice”. Wishing you all the best in your recovery ❤
    xx

  9. This was one of the most beautiful and real about me pages I’ve ever read. Keep fighting and pushing for the deserved right to feel, live and love your life. I look forward to reading your posts and being a part of your journey ❤

  10. It’s always a “Breath Of Fresh Air” to me when those in recovery share their “In Your Face” attitude and honest feelings of addiction & recovery. Why bullshit around the bush? It’s how we are able to chip away at the *Stigma* of it! Good to meet you, and I’m a NEW FAN! 🙂
    Author, Catherine Lyon

    • Thank you, lovely lady! Recovery, to me, is a perplexing thing and I tend to get discouraged when I “mess up” or falter but comments like this reassure me that I’m doing the right thing. I’m so glad you enjoy my blog!
      It’s great to “meet” you too and I hope to see you around! Xx

  11. You are a beautifully weak and broken person- we all are. But you have the courage to admit it, live it and love life despite the faults. You are inspiring. You are a life-changer. You are light.
    I hope that you’ll (please, please, please) KEEP WRITING!
    xoxoxo

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